Not feeling topical today. Not horrible, not great. Kind of emotional. I get these random pangs of want for adventure, and there's nothing I can do about it. My life is my life. I can't just conjure up money so that I can have adventures, and adventures generally cost money.
Something that occupies a lot of my thought space is being able to find a course, a career, that I like. Something that I enjoy, something that I'm good at, something I can do with pride, and something that makes money. I'm absolutely beyond terrified that I'll be stuck working in a crappy job that I don't like, that I dread getting up for every morning, and that doesn't make me enough money to be able to support myself comfortably. And I feel like time is running out. I'm not really sure why I feel that way, but it's really scaring me. Stressing me out.
I gotta stop drinking. I think it's really fucking with me.
Also, it's giving me digestive problems. I feel like crap today!
Yes. I am pretty sure I hate today.
Something that occupies a lot of my thought space is being able to find a course, a career, that I like. Something that I enjoy, something that I'm good at, something I can do with pride, and something that makes money. I'm absolutely beyond terrified that I'll be stuck working in a crappy job that I don't like, that I dread getting up for every morning, and that doesn't make me enough money to be able to support myself comfortably. And I feel like time is running out. I'm not really sure why I feel that way, but it's really scaring me. Stressing me out.
I gotta stop drinking. I think it's really fucking with me.
Also, it's giving me digestive problems. I feel like crap today!
Yes. I am pretty sure I hate today.
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