$75 dollars is what it is going to cost me to pay the parking ticket I got today while I was legally parked at a meter on campus, but because I haven't registered my car yet. Those sons of bitches. $75! Like it's not already going to cost me an arm and a damn leg to register the thing anyway.
I don't feel like writing much tonight. So the short version is that I saw the therapist and she seems fine; I go back next week. The psychiatrist was great, she made me eat crackers and drink juice, and she has officially put me on Pristiq. I'm super optimistic that I will find some relief on this medication, but we will see. I'm also very hesitant to be changing medications but I guess I have already felt as bad as I've felt, so what can be worse?
The psychiatrist told me that I should think very carefully about a more intensive outpatient therapy, so she suggested a couple that meet three times a week. I don't know if they'll be helpful, and I don't know if I'll have the motivation to go as directed. They're CBT-based, and I'm not a big fan of CBT OR group stuff, but maybe I will be willing to try it.
I woke up at like 3am last night with an intense feeling of agitation. I kept having numbers run through my head, so I wonder if I was dreaming about work, or school or something, but I felt incredibly anxious so I popped a couple of Ativan and turned on a movie and did my best to just lie there and concentrate on the movie. I was eventually able to fall back asleep, but when I finally did wake up, I really didn't want to get up. Same as most mornings. I'm hoping to go to bed by 10:30 tonight and get up around 7am tomorrow and start myself on a routine so that I stop sleeping as much. I don't know if I'll be able to do it, but it's (again) worth a shot.
That's it for tonight. I have wanted to do nothing today besides crawl back into my bed and I'm finally able to.
I don't feel like writing much tonight. So the short version is that I saw the therapist and she seems fine; I go back next week. The psychiatrist was great, she made me eat crackers and drink juice, and she has officially put me on Pristiq. I'm super optimistic that I will find some relief on this medication, but we will see. I'm also very hesitant to be changing medications but I guess I have already felt as bad as I've felt, so what can be worse?
The psychiatrist told me that I should think very carefully about a more intensive outpatient therapy, so she suggested a couple that meet three times a week. I don't know if they'll be helpful, and I don't know if I'll have the motivation to go as directed. They're CBT-based, and I'm not a big fan of CBT OR group stuff, but maybe I will be willing to try it.
I woke up at like 3am last night with an intense feeling of agitation. I kept having numbers run through my head, so I wonder if I was dreaming about work, or school or something, but I felt incredibly anxious so I popped a couple of Ativan and turned on a movie and did my best to just lie there and concentrate on the movie. I was eventually able to fall back asleep, but when I finally did wake up, I really didn't want to get up. Same as most mornings. I'm hoping to go to bed by 10:30 tonight and get up around 7am tomorrow and start myself on a routine so that I stop sleeping as much. I don't know if I'll be able to do it, but it's (again) worth a shot.
That's it for tonight. I have wanted to do nothing today besides crawl back into my bed and I'm finally able to.
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