I'm perturbed right now. Everything was just fine until I stopped getting text messages. Earlier, I texted Tim to see if he wanted to meet up for beers at Conor O'Neil's, and never got a response. Then I got on facebook a minute ago to see that he's there right now, with his brother, who I know. So either he didn't get my text (unlikely) or he ignored me. I hate being ignored.
On top of that, I've just stopped hearing from the newest guy I'd been talking to from the free dating site. Again, I feel ignored.
When you're someone who has a lot of trouble caring for themselves and who has low self-esteem as it is, having people ignore you just makes you feel that much worse. I feel like I don't matter! I shouldn't ever have to feel that way, right? I should feel loved and cared for, and I don't! It doesn't matter that the people I want to hear from aren't people I'm close to, because of the manner of the mental illnesses I have, it's still very painful to think that no one cares or respects you enough to respond when you speak to them. What the hell.
On top of that, I've just stopped hearing from the newest guy I'd been talking to from the free dating site. Again, I feel ignored.
When you're someone who has a lot of trouble caring for themselves and who has low self-esteem as it is, having people ignore you just makes you feel that much worse. I feel like I don't matter! I shouldn't ever have to feel that way, right? I should feel loved and cared for, and I don't! It doesn't matter that the people I want to hear from aren't people I'm close to, because of the manner of the mental illnesses I have, it's still very painful to think that no one cares or respects you enough to respond when you speak to them. What the hell.
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